A third-grade slumber party
at a classmate's house. A couple of other girls are there, four of us in all, and as the night wears on and we get situated into pajamas and sleeping bags,
we begin to play Truth or Dare. Dares have to be non-disruptive to the rest of the sleeping household but still have to be good enough to illicit the daredevil feeling and giggly responses of us girls.
Mundane Truths get tossed around the group until I decide to break the cycle on my next turn. When my name is called, I opt for Dare. The two other girls confer with each other before turning to eye myself and the homeowner over. "I dare you to kiss Amanda,"
one of them giggles breathlessly.
And I freeze, considering whether I should go through with it. I don't want to ruin the game, on the first dare no less, nor do I want to make Amanda uncomfortable in her own home, this being the only time I've been invited over. I decide to kiss her but don't know how to get over there and close to her face and once I do she's all blushing and giggling
and the other two girls are goading me on. "Come on, Amy, just do it!"
coming out of a whisper now, "Come on!" I get up onto my hands and knees, crawl a step towards Amanda, and press my lips against hers, taking a moment to enclose her bottom lip within my two, trembling ones, before pulling away.
What was, for me, just one of my first kisses, became, for the rest of the group, something to talk about. As I sat back and re-covered my lap with my sleeping bag all I heard was "Ewwww!" from all of the other girls, including my latest kissing partner.
After the blushing, after the game, after the other girls are asleep, I lay there thinking about the kiss. Monday at school everyone in the class knows about the incident, half of them are calling me a lesbian, and even the teacher has been informed, by Amanda herself, no less, about our weekend kiss -- and I'm sure the words "Truth or Dare" were left out of all descriptions of the incident.
For several years after I was thought to be a lesbian, though towards the end of school the boys decided this wasn't such a bad thing at all and found themselves wishing they could watch girls kiss each other